Try Again.

(i started getting into defjam poetry. this is meant to be spoken word, so it sounds better if i would "perform" it. hahahaha.)

What happens when you try? You try and you try, but you can't win.
You try and you try, but it's always a dead end. and you cant help but try again.
Cuz there's always hope.
False or true, it dont matter to you. This hope.
False or true, you still choose.. To forgive. To condone.
Like everything that went wrong was a fault of your own.
Like the words in your heart were spoiled fruit, overgrown.
And you cant see. you cant believe.
That he's suffocating.
Suffocatin like, he sees you too much, and he's tired of your touch.
Suffocatin like, he's tired of your calls and texts, like he always knows what comes next.
But you're scared to let him breathe..
and the closer you hold him, the sooner he leaves..the sooner you cry.
and you cant wait, to see him again to call him again. You vacillate.
You dont understand, he dont reach for your hand.
Not anymore. not like before.
His eyes dont sparkle when the sky is clear,
his arm dont tremble when you bring him near
Not anymore, not like before.
And you want to speak up but youre afraid to say,
cuz anything serious will drive him away...
Away on a road, on a different path.
And you end up reminiscin' about the love that you had.
What happens when you try? You try and you try, but you can't win.
You try and you try, but it's always a dead end. And you cant help..
but try again.

♥ erato